Saturday, June 30, 2001

So, yes, in the "that's really damn scary" category, click here.

Friday, June 29, 2001

Ooooh, okay, so I lied.. the blog-a-thon is *JULY* 28 & 29, not June, so I may be able to participate after all! Sounds good to me! :)

Humm, late to work as usual!
Due to the fact that I can't participate in the real blog-a-thon, which I'm too lazy to look up the link to at this moment, I'm planning on doing my own sort of blog-a-thon starting on Monday night. Since I dont have the link handy, I should tell you that its basically people voulenteering to blog for 24-hours straight, at least once every half hour. People will sponsor them, and the money goes to charity. I just think that writing for 24 hours sounds cool, so I'll do that when I have a day off. I've been doing a short version tonight, trying to blog at least once an hour while I'm awake. Oh, the joy of it all. And, due to all this, I would really appreciate if you would all email me a few ideas of thigns to write about. Questions would probably be the best form. They can be anything from "What's your favorite color?" to "Tell me about your childhood" to "What's this obsession with camels!?" or "If you were living in Yemen, and your only posession was a shiny silver paperclip..." well, okay, you get the point by now, I suppose. Just send me stuff, and I'll write. Yeah, thanks and stuff.
Well, darn, here it is almost july and I still haven't planted my flowers and plants yet. I'm really behind! For those of you who weren't here back in March, I bought some great seeds in the Wal-Mart garden department, which at the time, I couldn't wait to plant. I have cucumbers and really cool flowers, and many others that I just can't remember now.

I miss how easily writing came back in high school when I had to do it all the time. By college prep english, I could knock out a 5-paragraph essay in record time. I could just write anything at the drop of the hat, because I was used to doing it every damn day. And now it just isn't as fresh to me, and I agonize over flow and word usage, and it still just doesn't turn out as well. Oh, Mrs. Logan, would you kindly come back and make me write!?

And my pepsi consumption for tonight simply must stop. I've had three since I got home about two hours ago.
I wish I had a day to lay outside and watch the clouds, to make up stories for what they look like. I wish I had a stormy day, and a good book, or better yet, a stormy day and a bookstore and a credit card I didnt have to pay off. Yeah, that would be great.

I fear I've fallen into a comfort zone, and im just too afraid to make changes, even though I know they would probably be for the best right now. I've worked at Dixie being underpaid and over worked for 2 years now, but for some reason I stay there. I've lived in Branson for almost 12 years, and now that I've seen all there is to see, and done all there is to do, and there really isnt much keeping me here, I still stay. I continue to overwork myself for hardly any money and little or no appreciation, but that's just what I do I eat the same turkey sandwiches and wear the same jeans and t-shirts and sing the same songs and think the same things that I have for years, and I just want to get out of this rut. I am therefore planning two lovely trips with Kelly. Next year, we're going to go to Europe and see all there is to see, and then either in 2003 or 2004, hit the Middle East, Africa, Asia, yada yada ya. I have so many different reasons for these trips. First of all, if you're somehow blind and have been living in a hole, I REALLY need a vacation. A real one. Second, who wouldn't love to pub-hop in London with a great friend, and decide which Eurpopean hotel we stay in is the scariest? To see Stonehenge and the Tower of London and the Eiffel Tower and such? And hell, I'm 1/4 Irish, I think I should see the country sometime before I die, why not now?

And so, while all of those reasons are fine and dandy, and really enough to go on by themselves, there's also the Real Reason. I'm at this point in my life where I've decided I want to make changes, and figure things out. Now, in my opinion, about 90% of our initial beliefs, morals, values, and general ideas about the world come from either our parents, the media, or our friends. How much of what you believe in did you really just sit around, research and contemplate, and then decide? Most of us have our religious beliefs because they were passed on to us by our families from the time we were old enough to sit through church without crying. They taught us what was right and wrong, and then those beliefs were either affirmed or questioned by our peers and the things we have seen. And so I can't help but wonder, how would my ideas, beliefs, and values be different if I had been exposed to more diversity in my life? How can I really know what I believe if I've never been exposed to what others believe? And so came about the seedling of an idea, to go to other countries and see what they are like. To eat what they eat, do the things they do, and absorb as much as I can. Then I will finally (um, hopefully!) feel ready to decide where to go from here. And hey, if all else fails, its still going to be one hell of a trip!
I'm so sick of being screwed over by Dixie. Its days like this that I just sit there and think "Okay, I do twice the work of everyone else.. for half the money. And yet I STILL work here?"

Thursday, June 28, 2001

You know, when I do things throughout the day, I make a mental note to write about them later, but then I never do.

Today I went to Springfield with the purpose of trying on the cool Renaissance costumes at the costume place and taking pictures, but ended up just shopping instead. Mom and I had a great lunch at Olive Garden, and then went to Barnes & Noble. Me + B&N= very dangerous! Soon after we got inside, it started pouring rain outside, which was just great as far as I was concerned! I found a great Van Gogh book and plopped down in a chair with a view of the storm. I ended up buying a book called "The Wish List", which is a lot like my "List of things to do before I die", but a hell of a lot longer. I really may have to post my list here sometime.

In other news, Kelly and I have decided that a trip to Europe next year is a necessity, so if you know of any cool stuff we should visit, let us know.

Last night, while returning videos to the store, I decided I felt like driving to Arkansas, and so I did. Once there, I turned around and came back. Sometimes, I think you just need to drive.

Monday, June 25, 2001

What a wonderful day. Got out of working, played with my horse, and rented movies. Sitting here watching Monty Python's Quest For The Holy Grail, while reciting every line on IM's :) I'm going to start a new blog to cover my horse training with Parelli methods, if anyone is interrested. I'll let you know when its up.

Monday, June 18, 2001

How I wish I were on my way somewhere. I'd love to have bags packed and airline tickets sitting on the kitchen table, just waiting to take me somewhere. Or even a semi-clean truck full of bags, a tank of gas, mixed CD's and a destination. I guess I've just been more restless than usual lately, I cant stand to stay in one place too long. And now its to the hard part.. St. Louis last weekend, then Kentucky, and now nowhere to look forward to going, unless you count Florida this December, which seems so long away. I guess I just always need something good to look forward to, to make the monotony of everyday life go by a little quicker.
The good news is that my spider bite has moved past the "Good Lord, her leg is going to fall off!" stage, and is now just in the "Eww, that really isnt pretty" stage. I think that means I'm okay :)

What, may I ask, is better than 7-am phone calls just to say good night/good morning to someone you adore?

Sunday, June 17, 2001

Well, first of all, I am shocked and horrified that none of you left me comments while I was gone! You really should all be ashamed of yourselves! (Well, except the one of you who was very nice and left me voicemail... you're still good!)

Anyway, Kentucky was great :) Really, really far away if you have to drive, but great! We saw some amazing horses, and bought some really cool stuff. I may never recover from seeing John Lyons, Pat Parelli, Clinton Anderson and Monty Roberts all in the same weekend. Oh, and Erin, Monty didnt seem to remember you ;-) Parelli was my favorite-- I have his book at home all highlighted and with notes all over the margins, so I broke down and bought a bunch of stuff there.. bye bye money!

I came home to find two sisters, four neices, two nephews, and two parents here waiting for me. And a million emails, and all that good stuff. Going away on the weekends is a very, very good thing. I wish I could do it more often!

Thursday, June 14, 2001

Well, as of Noon on Thursday, im off to Kentucky.. I am really excited to go, even though I know I will really miss some of you. Its been such a lonely feeling, after coming home from St. Louis, going from having at least 10 or 20 friends around all the time, to just being by myself again. I really miss you guys! I've been getting pictures in my email from everyone, and I love them :) I wish I had a picture of Will's nametag, where we wrote "If found inebriated, please return to Siri Macallen". And oh, for a picture of Katt running into the glass door, even though Ashlee's recreation is pretty damn funny too.

And, if you haven't noticed, my new comment system is working correctly! So leave me comments allready!
Ah ha! Its alive again!
I think I killed my blog!

Tuesday, June 12, 2001

And guess what! Due to someone great, I can now get comments again! Come on, leave me comments,you know you want to!!!

Monday, June 11, 2001

Okay, fine, since Kenny wont leave me alone, ill finally post the answer to the 9 True Things & one that isnt. (which, if you actually paid attention to, I screwed up and was actually 8 true things and one that wasnt) Anyway, for those of you who still want to scroll down and read it, the answer is found by clicking here!

Sunday, June 10, 2001

You know that last episode every season of the Real World where it shows them all at the airport saying goodbye? That's exactly how I felt today! I know it doesnt seem possible, but I feel like the 30 of us got so much closer over the weekend. There are definitly some people there I wish I had more time to get to know, but I really liked everyone.

I know you all want to know about SimuCon..but I dont even know where to begin in telling a story like this. Sure there are great stories like Katt running into the sliding glass door, the whole assassins game, and Will passing out in the hallway outside Quavy's with a knife next to him. And little things like that really added to the weekend, but more than anything, it was the people. I was really impressed with everyone-- we're all so different, but we all get along so well. Maybe I'll write more later about exactly what all went on, but for now, all I can say is it was one amazing weekend.

Saturday, June 09, 2001

Well, wow, are there even words to describe the last two days? We have had so much fun.. its been great. I wish I were conscious enough to type, but im so very tired. We had a great mystery seminar today.. that was a lot of fun.. and then we've been playing this assassin game where you get a photo of someone who is your target.. and you have to hunt them down and "kill" them somehow. Ill elaborate later, right now im getting dizzy from lack of sleep! Love ya!

Monday, June 04, 2001

I feel like a lost child, curled up waiting to be found.
So have you been to People send him titles, and he draws drawings for them. Sounds like a fun thing to do, so if you send me some titles, I'll paint. I'll even show you if they're good :)
Ooh, another fabulous Story People.. This One reminds me of trick riders :)

I think I'm going to have to add a new section on the menu just for links like this, or else ill be changing the Art link every day!

Sunday, June 03, 2001

You know what I adore? How every night, when one of us announces we are going to bed, the others all carry on and whine, and try to convince them to stay up a bit longer, as if we wont all be doing the exact same thing tomorrow night.

Another night with hardly any sleep. I'm getting so used to this, its sad. But I thrive upon it.
My prayers have been answered- its raining. And I added a new art link over on that nifty purple menu.
I would give nearly anything for a lovely rainy day in which I had nothing to do but curl up with a good book, a notebook, and my thoughts. I need time to sort through them all and put them down on paper. I just need time.

Tomorrow will be Hair Dying Day, as it has been a while. I really wish I could dye my hair blue or orange, or something equally out of the ordinary, just for a week or so to have a change, but alas, work forbids it, so it will be some sort of reddish brown concoction, as usual. Help, help, im being repressed!!!

I'm still very excited about SimuCon this weekend! For those keeping up, I'm now sharing a room with Remi, and Matt will be sleeping in our bathtub. However, if you need me, I'll probably be in Ashlee's room discussing ducks and blue boots... or down in the lounge playing Clue with Siri over coffee. Mmmm, coffee. Too bad Dave cant go to be my personal coffee man. Err, coffee rat?

You know, I was going to write something here, but it has escaped me now. Maybe later

Saturday, June 02, 2001

"Hold me now dont bother, if every second it makes me weaker"

I just love that lyric tonight.

Friday, June 01, 2001

Does anyone know of a good comment system I can use to replace Blog Voices? I really miss getting comments from y'all So someone email me and tell me what you think of my new design allready! Gheez! FEEDBACK, PEOPLE!!

Oh, and... SIX DAYS TILL SIMUCON!!!!!!!

Today at work was so very confusing and crazy it would take me a very long time to tell you about it, but I plan to get around to that eventually.
Okay, so the first paragraph of each post is showing up in a weird font, and my links are really small, but everything else seems to be in working order! Millions of thanks to Kelly, who let me pretned im a good web designer by playing around with her fabulous new design, and intertwining it with some of my own.
Lets see if this works...