Wednesday, February 27, 2002

I dont even know how to describe how I've felt in the past couple days. The term "rollercoaster of emotions" is the one that sticks in my mind. I've made a commitment to really get back into my mary kay business and do it right, and that has made me feel unbelievably positive and happy. However, other stuff going on has upset me and really stressed me out. I find myself questioning everything, particularly after some discussions I had last night. I think I know how I would react to certain situations, but would I really? Im very, very confused.



And of course, its tax time, kids! Amanda called me yesterday and said that it would be a VERY good thing if I could get my mk order in by the end of this month vs. by the end of the quarter (march 15th). So, I need to file my taxes now, and borrow the money from dad based upon what I'll be getting back.



I'm not happy about the way everything has been going lately, and I'm changing that. You cant control your circumstances, but you can control your outlook and your attitude.



As I hopped in my truck this afternoon to deliver some samples to my aunt, I heard exactly what I needed to hear.

Affirmation, from the Savage Garden CD of the same title



I believe the sun should never set upon an argument

I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands

I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you

I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do

I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem

I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone



I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned

I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned

I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side

I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye



I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality

I believe that trust is more important than monogamy

I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul

I believe that family is worth more than money or gold

I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair

I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires



I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned

I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned

I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side

I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye



I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness

I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed

I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists

I believe in love surviving death into eternity



I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned

I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned

I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side

I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye



Have I told you a million times how much I love this CD? The whole CD is like liquid poetry, and its so personal- you sort of follow the singer's marriage from bliss to breakdown. His wife had to be crazy, who could end something with a man who could write "I might need you to hold me tonight". Is there any bigger turn on that sensitivity and not being afraid to show a vulnerable side? Whew!

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