Thursday, April 22, 2010

That's the night that the lights went out...

Yes, an entire week later, I still have no electricity. Yes, it BLOWS. But luckily FL has been unseasonably cool, so I've just left the windows open and had a pretty decent breeze. It's almost impossible to find food that you don't either have to refrigerate or cook, though, so the Taco Bell dollar menu has been my very best friend. My friend who lives next door has been letting me use her shower occasionally. It's kind of like camping, but without the s'mores. Woohoo?

An actual update as soon as I actually can!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Just a quick update- my electricity got turned off yesterday, and it may be a few days (week?) before I get it back on, so I will be pretty MIA from the internet for a while. I'm currently camped out in the back room of my library because dude, not having air conditioning sucks when you live in Florida!

Hopefully I will be back SOON!

Thursday, April 08, 2010

When all else fails, blog about shoes.

Warning: If you are a big fan of posts where I drool over $2000 Ann Demeulemeester boots and lovely red-soled Louboutins, this post might break your heart!

If you've ever been to the Disney parks with me though, you will totally understand. And gheez, I needed a fluffy post so that my depressing last one wasn't sitting at the top of the blog forever!

These have been my theme park shoes for the past whole lotta years. Crocs makes super comfy shoes, and thankfully they have moved past the original style clogs:

They have SO MANY choices now, it was fun to poke around! I think my current leaders for theme park shoe replacements are the following:

This style is called Laguna, and they are marked down to ten dollars! Woot woot, shoes I can (almost, eventually) afford!

This style is called Cabana , and yeah, they aren't practical for the parks, but they are kinda cute! Perfect with little summer sundresses that are too casual for heels, but you want something a little more heely than flip-flops!

The Melbourne style in sky/navy. Since I almost always wear jeans to the parks, it's hard to go wrong with blue!

And finally the Crocsband flip in bubblegum (and maybe another pair in black?) because I am girly and can not resist bubblegum pink flip-flops!

After some poking around through the non-flip flop sections of the site, I discovered that they now also make BOOTS! Behold!

If these are any kind of comfy, they would be awesome to wear to concerts, where I always fight the look cute vs be able to feel my toes at the end of the night battle. (Look cute always wins.)
The style is called Exitosa, but they are $199 so umm... yeah, I'll have to pass. But how fun are the silver and red versions?

I also found these, called Nanook. These look sooooo comfy, almost like bunny slippers! I wonder if I could get away with wearing the black ones at work?

Any other recommendations for comfy theme park adventuring shoes?

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

I have become a bath girl.

Not baths in the normal get all soapy and clean way, but in the fill up the tub with super hot water, lay back, and let all the tension float away way. I've been stressed, and my back has been hurting, but somehow slipping into a nice hot bath makes it all melt away. I even fell asleep in the tub the other night for the first time ever. I usually take a notebook and book in with me, and leave them tubside, but most of the time I just close my eyes and think.

Thursday, April 01, 2010


I was just looking at my blog to check some technical stuff, and I noticed how little I have blogged about my actual LIFE lately. I've talked fashion and movies and books, lions and tigers and bears, oh my! But not much about me. I'm pretty sure that's because my life has been kind of sucky and very stressful lately, so I'm avoiding it. But hey, what good is blogging if you don't share the bad along with the good sometimes?

Long story short, I'm broke. I'm beyond broke, I'm like... negative broke. I missed 6 weeks of work out sick on medical leave back in Nov/Dec, and just missed almost three more. When you're already in debt and living paycheck to paycheck, that is a major kick in the pants.

My rent is due, well, today, and I have no money to pay it. My electric bill is overdue. I have a payday loan that I got to help with last month's rent that I had to extend, because I can't pay it. I'm out of food, out of gas, and ewwwwww, out of kitty litter. (My apartment smells delightful!)

I missed keeping track of ONE item I bought, and as a result, I ended up with ELEVEN bounced items in my bank account, all of which cost between $1-6. The overdraft fees ate up my entire check for last week, so even though I got paid today, my account is still -$13. I'm drinking a LOT of tea, because I'm pretty much down to pop tarts and some plain pasta (no sauce or anything), and I can't stomach the idea of eating any more of either one.

I used almost the last of my gas today to go to my bank and beg for mercy. The lady I talked to wasn't able to reverse any of the fees for me, but she said she'd get in touch with a manager and see if they could. That was 11am, it's now 5pm and I haven't heard back. If they could even reverse ONE fee, I'd have like $20 to get some gas and food for the week. If not, I have no idea how I am getting to and from work between now and next payday!

I had a really crappy, rock bottom kind of day yesterday. I had an appointment to go to, and on the way there, I realized I hadn't had anything to drink yet that morning, and I was reeeeally thirsty. You know how you start getting a headache when you're getting dehydrated, and it's really annoying? Well, I got to my destination, and was frustrated to find that the whole building (it was a big mall-type complex of various offices and businesses) didn't have a water fountain. And trust me, you don't want to drink Orlando tap water. I knew there was a Dunkin Donuts on the lower floor, so I stopped in to ask for a glass of water, feeling kinda embarassed about asking for water without ordering anything.

The lady working the counter sort of rudely told me it would be 25 cents. I told her I didn't have any money on me, hoping she'd take some pity since I was being nice and pretty much begging, but she just gave me a shrug of the shoulders and waited on the next person. I ended up outside crying, a lot. Such a stupid thing, but it was that last straw.

I'm also freaking out because the license plates on my car expired yesterday, and my apartment complex periodically has cars towed if they have expired plates. ARRGH.

The most ironic part is that in my discussion with the bank lady today, I mentioned I heard there was a new law going into effect where you will no longer get charged overdraft fees on items that are less than $10. She confirmed that yep, there is, and it starts... April 1st. Today. If only screw-up had occurred a week and a half later, it would have saved me like $250.

As I mentioned in a previous post, my lease is up the end of this month. I'm planning to move back home with my mom for about 6 months, to get a break from all the crazy stress, and to get sorted out financially. We have an awesome house there that has a totally separate apartment downstairs where I used to live, so I can live rent and utility free for several months, without actually having to technically live with anyone. Not being in Orlando for the summer is going to seriously suck in some ways, but I think in the long run, it's the best thing I can do.

I still don't know what's going to happen with my job. I'm requesting a leave of absence, which means I would still have my job when I come back, I'd still have insurance while I'm gone, and I wouldn't lose my seniority. However, I'm not sure if it will get approved, or, even more importantly, if you are allowed to hold another job while on leave. I have to work while I'm back home, or there's no point. My other option is going seasonal, which means I'd still lose my seniority and insurance, but I't still technically work for Disney, and it would me much easier to get a full time position when I come back than if I totally quit. Even that, though, depends on me being able to get a seasonal position.

Did I mention I've been kinda stressed out?

99% of the time, I don't mind being single, but this is one of those times I really wish I had someone to go through this with, who would just hold me when things get too tough.

I re-watched the movie Beyond Borders the other night, to try to make my problems seem smaller. It's the one with Angelina Jolie, set in various refugee camps. It's a good reminder of what real struggle, and real courage, really look like. I remember this being the image that really haunted me the first time I saw it:

It's what got me involved with donating and raising money for Doctors Without Borders. Every $1 donated to them can provide 27 high-energy meals for starving people. I've been totally miserable the past week, and that's WITH a good roof over my head, air conditioning, clean water, and a couple of decent meals before my food stock dwindled. That's WITH internet and a phone and books to read, and hot showers. Being hungry SUCKS, but it sucks a lot less from an apartment in a gated community than a war-torn area where you fear for your safety. Things might really suck for me right now, but at least I know my situation is temporary. For thousands of people, it's a way of life. So I should feel lucky, feel grateful for what I do have.

Still, I'd totally kill for a taco right now!

It Might Get Loud

(Pardon the annoying intro, I couldn't find a vid of just the trailer that would let me embed! And YIKES that's a creepy screencap!)

So, my new plan in life is to marry The Edge. I think we will be very happy together.

I've wanted to see this documentary since before it came out, and never caught it while it was in theaters. Amazingly, you can now get it from Redbox!! (I heart Redbox so hardcore!) I actually had an argument with a friend over whether or not Jack White deserved to be in a film with two guitarists of such iconic status, but watching this gave me way more respect for him, and now I think he's kinda a genius. I was fascinated by what he said about approaching playing like a battle, like he's fighting with the guitar. So very different from what you usually hear! Plus, I just like sitting around listening to The Edge talk. And Jimmy Page is... well, JIMMY FREAKING PAGE. I must own it on DVD ASAP!

Amazon has it for like$20 . Totally worth it to see Jimmy Page play air guitar, but I think I'm going to have to wait till the price drops a bit. Or until I marry The Edge and he gives me a free one. (Especially since I failed to get it back to Redbox before 9pm, and the extra $1 charge made me overdraft, so renting it essentially cost me $37. OUCH! Edge should totally buy me dinner. Yeah, I'm dropping the "the" and going all one-word basis with him, now that we are engaged and all.)